Last night.

Well, as so many people have reminded me - It's officially my last night without a kid.  I can't sufficiently write in words the feelings that are going through my head.   I first want to note what great support we've had from all our family and friends.

Our decision to come to Houston for medical and start a family has been the best decision so far.   Not just for school, but for being closer to family.  Just the shear amount of relatives that we have so close has been great.   Shelby has 3 uncles and aunts, numerous cousins, and her Meemaw all within about 45 minutes in the Tomball area.  On my side, Joseph and Breana, Serena and Dave, and my grandmother live practically right down the road.  All their support and willingness to help has superseded any of our expectations as when decided to move to Houston.

I've really admired many of my classmates these past few weeks too, especially those those that are married - and even more those that have children.  The balancing act they constantly play scares me at times, but observing them has given me confidence in my abilities to do the same when Grayson comes.  These new friends in Houston have been another great aspect of our transition to Houston.  Their willingness to babysit, make food, or even stay the night here so we can sleep is appreciated.  I feel if we have any questions medically related about children, Candace or Josh having two children of their own will definitely have an answer.   If we need anybody to just cheer us up or do the most random favor - I know that I can call Lindsay and she'll do anything (literally) at the blink of an eye.  Brandon always provides a comical outlet in any situation that can't be overlooked.  There have been so many more that have expressed their concern and desire to help that I can't possibly thank them all in one post.

It's almost surreal now as we get ready to go to bed how different our lives will be tomorrow.  We will have the greatest responsibility placed upon us to raise a child and give him our unconditional love as he grows up.   Sometimes I feel so inadequate or unexperienced with matters like this but at the same time I feel so anxious to jump right in.  I've never changed a diaper still, nor have I ever really babysat an infant, but beyond that I know that our decision to have Grayson has been the best decision of our lives so far.  I know Shelby'll do great tomorrow, because she is so strong-willed and determined.   I'm also thankful that my in-laws are down to be here with us through these dramatic days.

So as I end this post, I ponder about what tomorrow will bring and how I'll feel.  I'll truly be a husband, Father, and student.