Why am I here?

The best interview ever. 

Although it hasn't been that long ago since I started medical school, I'm already beginning to feel the drag of the constant studying, sleepless nights, and loss of why I even decided to go to medicine.  When we sit in a lecture hall (the same one) for 4 hours a day straight, every weekday, I imagine feelings like this are only normal for anybody pursuing this dream.

I recall a year ago when I was applying to medical school.  I was stressed out about the MCAT, my classes at A&M, getting married, and which school I would be going to - but what I did have at the moment was excitement and a desire to aim for the biggest goals in the world.  I imagined nothing could stop me from realizing my goal of being a doctor and helping people through a unique way that few have or ever would  experience.  I dreamed of seeing patients, diagnosing them, and following them through their treatment plan to a successful recovery.    -  -  Sadly I admit now, I have lost many of these desires.

I was fortunate enough at this same time to stumble upon a blog written by a first year student here at BCM named is Rishi Kumar.   I read about how he enjoyed going on Fridays and talking to the interviewees that were coming to look at the school and be evaluated.  He talked about how these moments revitalized his desire and kept him motivated.   Today I'm glad to say, that I have experienced those same feelings.   During the afternoon I was fortunate enough to have a few moments free, so I decided to drop by the lecture hall where they keep the interviewees.  I was able to talk to a few people from all over the nation and hear their stories and motivation to become a doctor.   All of them were very bright and by all means qualified by me to be great students and will likely get accepted to their choice of school.  All of them had the same characteristic though, that desire.  The one you only see in naive, ignorant, and unexperienced students.  The desire that will blindly lead you through anything and everything, whatever the cost to succeed.   It was this that I once had, recently lost, but now rekindled.

It's truly amazing the affect positive people around you can have.  The emotional attitude change that can be drawn from another is incredible so as that people change their lives just from seeing others transform theirs.  I expect many more drop-ins this year to keep my fire going, and to experience the unique affect associating with people that have the same goals as myself.

WOD: 10 min AMRAP - 4 135# hand clean/4 50# turkish getup.  After 10 minutes, 2 minute limit to establish 1RM clean jerk
completed:  5 rounds, 4 cleans, 2 TGUs/  1RM 215